I Want More

“There’s nothing like meeting someone who mentally gives you company in places you’ve always felt alone.”
~Derrick Jaxn
I Still Want It


I’ve always given myself whole-heartedly to love.
But always felt like something was missing in return.
I get it; there are no 2 people who are alike
So I’m not expecting perfection.
What I want is, to be stimulated mentally.

It’s like I’m not being challenged enough.
Going through the role is not enough for me.
I want you to get me!
I need you to be intrigued by my complexities.

I want to sit up till the wee hours of the morning
debating a TED Talk,
With nothing but pure intellect and mutual respect.

I don’t want to be alone with my thoughts anymore.
I want to share them with someone who has the capacity to understand what drives me.

Looking good isn’t enough anymore,
If all that’s inside is shallow or void.
I want to be able to use the word “perfidiousness”
And you not look at me and smile,
Thinking that I’m talking about your style.

I can’t wait to meet the one that gets me!
Not the cliche type that wants to finish my sentences and agree with everything I say.
But the one that can truly explain what the purpose of an electoral college is
Without saying, “It’s all set up to fail”.
Or the one that can discuss the reality of “soul-mates”,
When we know “soul-ties” exist.

Most of all I can’t wait to meet someone who can challenge me with the Word of God.
Let’s spend hours using scripture to decipher our true purpose.
Let’s talk about why it’s so easy to turn around and sin again,
After just begging God for forgiveness.
Let’s try to figure out why Moses was the only one who could touch the Arc of the Covenant and survive.
Let’s understand what constitutes as a destitute and reprobate mind.
Explain to me the concept of salvation after reading 1 Corinthians 5:5.

So for this year, I will make it a point of my duty, to be Intellectually Stimulated. The days of being mentally alone, will all be left in the past.

Yeah, I guess it’s ok to talk about what happened on last weeks episode of whatever,
But aren’t y’all tired of having meaningless conversations that lead nowhere, with people who don’t necessarily mean you any good?

I really want to know what’s going on in your mind. Please share what it is that drives you. Hopefully, I’m not the only one that feels this way.






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